The Lake

*frowns*
You saved my life....

*Nods*
"The result was, and is, a big deal. The means weren't."

*shrugs*
The end is usually what matters. I just wish i could have seen his face...
*snickers*

*Looks around warily*
"He was pretty angry... He must need you in some sick, evil, twisted kind of way..."

*smirks and looks at her reflection in the water*
I keep forgetting...how much have I told you about Aiden...?

*shrugs*
"Not much, I must confess..."

*leans her head back to look up at him again*
Then let me explain. He isn't my real older brother--he raised me, yes, but he's really related to Tsukune. He's part angel, apparently, and says he deals out judgment from God. He wants every demon alive dead, beginning with me. He beats me and tires to kill me on a regular basis, which turned me into a masochist by necessity. He also took my ears and tail, which, to a full neko demon like myself, means that he took my virginity. He was my lover and my "caretaker"--now he wishes to be my executioner.
*smiles*
Better explanation?

*Smiles sadly*
"Life is a bitch, isn't it?"

*chuckles*
You have no idea. "No one in this world is a virgin--life fucks us all!"

*laughs a little*
"If only life could be this good forever... Then everyone would be happy..."

Oh, I don't think everyone could be happy in the world.
*winks*
Someone has to raise a little hell sometime...

*Grins Wryly*
"Too true... too true..."

*sighs and lays down in the grass, looking up at him*
So are you still planning on leaving?

*shrugs*
"Whenever the wind starts blowing hard enough... I guess."
*sighs*
"I'd like invite you to come with me. But I don't think you'd want to leave Tsukune for a life of wandering..."

*smiles*
I probably wouldn't, but I'd like it for you to stay, if you would...

*smiles back, sadly*
"I'd love to stay... But I think I'd be sad if I had to stay in one place for a long time... I've been wandering for too long now."

*sighs and closes eyes*
Hard to stop a habit once you've created it, eh? Thus, no matter how many times I'd like to feel pain for once instead of pleasure, i'll always be a masochist and crave "pain" for what it makes me feel, even when i dont want it any longer...

*sighs*
"You've lived a life that little to none would envy Ravyn... You deserve better than this."

*chuckles and opens one eye*
Really? Because I honestly believe I deserve every minute of it...

*Looks over questioningly*
"What did you do to deserve such a hell?"

*shrugs*
I just...guess I do. I've never had an explanation for it other than the one Aiden gave me--I'm a demon. I'm not meant to exist.
*laughs*
But I do, so i might as well cause hell while i can!

*looks at Rayvn, almost pityingly*
"Being a demon isn't a reason to hate yourself, to say that you shouldn't exist. Do you honestly believe that?"

*closes eyes*
Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. But if i'm not meant to exist, then why was I created? And if i was created only to be hated, I might as well exploit that and break things up more

*sighs*
"It's all one vicious and self-destructive cycle... Don't you ever want peace in your life..?"

*openes her eyes and stares at the sky*
Sometimes, yes. And sometimes, when i'm with Tsukune, I've found it...Aiden fucked up my life, though, and it's never going back to normal...