Pheonix Down

(meh I g2g, need to help with the candyness T.T tty later)

(bye bye Kuro. TTT.TTT)

*walks back in and shakes*

"Akemi-semapi did you see what he did."

*hugs Kirina*

"Yes I did."

*shrugs*
sorry about him he gets jealous when someone gets more attention then him

*giggles and sits on the armchair Kuro was sitting on*

"I see. So from the looks of it, you look new yourself."

*smiles kindly*

*runs up to the shop, knocking on the door constantly, practically in hysterics*
K-Kuro-kun! Kuro-kun!
*trembles and knocks softer and slower, shutting eyes*
Kuro... Kuro Tadashi...

*opens eyes, tears welling up and continues knocking quickly*
Kuro... Kuro-kun!
*hands slips to the doorknob and the door opens, stopping the knocking*
*lunges in and looks around shaking*
Kuro...?! Tadashi-kun...?!

*walks up to Phoenix Down, eyes still blazing and the cold, bitter look more evident in them*

*pays no mind to the sound of footsteps and walks around every inch of the store, cupping hands around mouth*
K... Kuro-kun...! Tadashi-san...?!
*eyes darken and lose their healthy gleam, feeling cold*
Why can't I feel him...

*speaks bitterly*
Because he's dead Shizuka.
Murdered.

*eyes widen and turns head towards the door, pupils becoming thin*
...what? You're... joking right?
*walks up to Mael and grips his shirt, shaking head absentmindedly*
You're joking right, Mael? Right?

*looks down at her and blinks*
No.
I'm not joking.
Kuro.
Is.
Gone.
Get used to it.

*laughs and shakes head, eyes practically soulless*
Ah, I see... so, will you also leave, Mael-kun?
*releases his shirt and smiles, staring at the ground*

*shrugs*
You mean will I pull a stunt like you tried to?
No.
I don't know.
Nobody seems to be able to give me a person to stay for.
Why bother at all?
I certainly can't make you happy, Kuro's dead, Amber's dead, Sakura's dead.
Chimi's so wrapped up that she doesn't even realize so much has happened, she's so naive that...I don't know her anymore.
*looks down at Shizuka*
What, precisely, does that leave me with?

Mael, just because I take the sadness of others to make them feel better doesn't mean you don't make me happy... if you think that... then that just saddens me. I don't call you my brother because you're kind. I feel as if I've known for almost as long as I've known Sakurai...
*stares up at Mael, unable to cry, body completely still*
So just because you don't know her anymore... you'll rip yourself out of her life? Out of my life? Before you met these people, what did you live for?

I've lived for people my entire existence Shizuka. Do you think for one moment that having the haunting and horrible past that I do could let me live for myself? I've done things to perfectly innocent people that would make your hair curl....
I wasn't always so controlled. *flicks a pebble away telekinetically with the twitch of a finger*
I was a monster, one of the very reasons people fear vampires nowadays. One of the very reasons there were needs for hunters in the first place.
I live with that. Amber tried to talk to me most of the night, she failed to make a dent.
Nothing anyone says will bring them back.
Now that I've got nobody to live for here, and nobody can give me a single name of a person to stay for...why should I bother?

*nods, surprisingly understandingly of Mael's words*
I didn't live until I met Sakurai, then my world slowly started to open up.
*laughs once, turning gaze away*
I was actually happy. I wanted to live. I still am and I still want to, but...
*eyes close halfway and closes hands into gentle fists*
I want Mael to stay for me, I want Mael to be happy and meet new people, I want Mael to die of old age, I want Mael to visit me if I get sick...
*tears up and shakes head*
I want Mael to cheer me up by being himself, I want Mael to treat me like his younger sister...
*clenches fists and closes eyes, a tear slipping over cheek*
I don't want Mael to leave.

How can I ever be happy...if my entire world that I had is falling apart around me?
The two remaining pillars left can't support that weight Shizuka....
*looks down*
You've got Sakurai, and Kukai.
They will have to suffice...

*breathes in sharply, restraining some tears as they sting eyes, shutting hands tightly*
You rebuild that world... little by little. I don't want Mael to leave, please don't, please don't...
*another tears drops to the floor and pinches Mael's sleeve, begging in a pleading voice*
Please don't leave Mael. Please don't leave...

I've got...not enough reason to stay.
I'm not going anywhere right now, but in the near future, unless something happens..
*shakes his head*
I'm through with this. Done.
I'm tired of sitting around and watching people die.
Who's next?
You?

*tugs at his sleeve, hugging Mael tightly, afraid to let him go*
I'll fight alongside Mael, I'll reinforce the pillars so they can hold that weight...
*clenches his coat and shivers once, getting cold sweat at the thought of Mael dying*
If me living keeps you living... I won't die. I'll fight. I live for Sakurai, Kukai, and Mael.

*shakes his head*
I should never be that important to you Shizuka...I'm not worth that much. It's about my time..I've lived a very long life now, I've got no regrets at this point.

*blurts out bluntly*
Shut up! Shut up, shut up...!
*shuts eyes and gasps in, shaking head frantically*
You are worth it! You're my brother! It's not your time if you say it is... please stop...

Everyone knows when it's their time to go..maybe, maybe I'll send my son here. If I go. Kenji knows how to find him....
*flies down and lands on Shizuka's shoulder*
I do...and I won't.
The girl is right.

*starts sobbing, stomping foot on the ground childishly and shaking head, heart feeling as if it's being crushed*
Please... please stop it... stop speaking like this, Mael, please!

*looks down at her*
Why?
Do you know...what this pain is like after being able to shut off pain for thousands of years and suddenly not being able to?